Meditation has often been a sticking point for me; I can’t begin to count the number of times I’ve started a meditation routine but was unable to stick with it for more than a week or two. Part of that is my severe anxiety where any opportunity to slow down and be quiet is filled with hysterical brain weasels doing their best to scream into the void. However, as a Christmas present to myself I bought a subscription to Calm, an app for meditation and mindfulness. For the past eight days I’ve meditated 10-20 minutes daily thanks to Calm’s guided meditations and session tracker.
Not only am I sticking with it, but I’m also starting to feel the benefits a lot faster than when I previously tried to meditate with only my own willpower to lean on. There are moments when I feel disconnected from my anxiety and can watch it happen as an outsider. I still feel anxious; I don’t know how that would change in the near future, as an inherently anxious creature. But this past week has been especially exciting for me in starting and keeping up with a meditation practice.
Officially for the meditation and mental training part of the DP, I only need to meditate once a week for five months. But considering how much this experience builds on itself from day to day, I don’t think that I personally would make any progress doing 10-20 minutes once a week. I won’t embarrass myself in the future by dedicating myself to meditate every day, but I certainly think meditating multiple times a week is going to be the best option for my own brain.